We Can Be Heroes

It’s my new weekly notebook for 2016. With my name on it. I’ve become old or just hipster. It arrived the same moment as the news, but luckily the needed hope came along as well. And space. For plans. We can be heroes (or starmen) and this year my plan is to be an hero. For a start.


I’m gonna talk openly about this. Sharing is caring… I’ve thought and still thinking, carefully, what I really want to do with my life and even though there seems to be almost too many good options, I know I need to make decisions and I need to do them quickly, without unnecessary hesitation. I’ve had enough of this, of not being in charge of my own life. I’ve had enough of the uncertainty, changing plans and unsuitable environments. At least when it comes to personal and professional life; in outdoor sports, on the contrary, those are the things I do them for. That’s where the excitement, challenge and flow comes from. Funnily enough.

I’ve been living the life, studying, learning, acquiring knowledge and skills, and most importantly gained experience, but lately I haven’t been able to use those nor my full potential, properly. And that makes me frustrated. I wanna reach to the next level, to the next record. Even though magic happens outside your comfort zone, sometimes you just need to get back to the comfort zone. Because the comfort too can be the magic.

This is Life

I don’t wanna waste more time, energy and other resources, while I could, or at least should, be doing what I really want to and can do. I want to use the potential I have, reach out  with my fun potential and see where it leads me. I don’t want to continue from office to office learning over and over the unwritten (office) rules which I’ll not be needing the next year nor in the next place. I don’t wanna be doing things like other people have used to do them, nor repeat the same mistakes (and record) over and over again.

I wanna do things differently, I wanna see what I’m really capable of doing and achieving. And if that happens, that I only have the power to do that with my personal life, then be it. Maybe and hopefully the professional one catches us in some point.

Simply, I’m gonna be the hero; live, laugh and love. Take the change and accept the challenge. And hopefully there’s serenity waiting.

I’m not sure what I’ll do, but— well, I want to go places and see people. I want my mind to grow. I want to live where things happen on a big scale.

© F. Scott Fitzgerald

When it comes to blogging, I have to admit I’m not sure what I’m really gonna do with this. But since I have so many other things to worry about, this is something I’m not gonna worry about . We’ll see, maybe I write more, maybe less. Maybe I start to edit the writing (sorry for all the spelling mistakes – you do have noticed this is also for practicing my english skills?). Maybe I figure out some fixed theme for my posts – maybe this becomes a fashion blog. Or fitness. Travel. Adventure. Wellness. Foodie. Wine. Gin… Or maybe I’ll keep it as it is.

A blog of life.


2016. Aika olla sankari. On uusi kalenteri ja paljon vapaata tilaa suunnitelmille ja elämälle. Ehkä keksin myös jotain järkeä tähän blogiinkin. Tai sitten en. Tärkeimpänä tavoitteena nyt vain elää parhaani mukaan.


Bring It On 2016

It’s the last day of 2015 which also happens to be the last day with this employer. Time to destroy the files and head and go for the new year and new adventures. And maybe review a thing or two about 2015.

I didn’t get any presents this Christmas. I got some promises  – later, when we see again, and I bought a thing or two to myself. Which was more than fine. Sounds bad, but it really wasn’t. I knew this Christmas would not be the Christmas. I knew it would be melancholic. And it was ok (although some people in the other end of my phone might have another opinion – thanks dear ones for the support!).

2015 really hasn’t been my year and it would have been wrong to ruin the pattern in this point. After all, I was in Finland and in Finland if somewhere it’s ok to be almost melodramatically melancholic sometimes.

mountain tops titlis

Nevertheless, from 2016 I wait many presents. Most importantly, I wait to be present. I wait others to be present. And I’ll do all I can to make that come true. Enough of this bullshit (sorry!) the last two years have mostly been; no presents nor people present. Too many champagne problems and too few classes of free, dry, cold champagne. Btw, have you ever thought how both the snow and the champagne are best when they’re free, dry and cold? I just grinned to that.



All in all, the bottom line here could say that goodbye 2015, you will not be missed much (except the Switzerland, Bilbao, Lapland and Tromsø parts). And welcome 2016 with new adventures. Yes, adventures, since I haven’t planned a thing yet. Except a trip to Lapland. See you tomorrow, home!

Ane Brun – Halo (Feat. Linnea Olsson) from Ane Brun on Vimeo.

2015 oli aika hirveä vuosi muutamine valopilkkuineen. Onneksi sentään ne valot olivat kirkkaita ja sateenkaaren väreissä heijastavia, sillä muuten olisi ollut suoraan sanottuna aivan liian raskas vuosi selvittävänä. Lyhyesti; heippa 2015, ei tule ikävä. Ja hei 2016 ja uudet seikkailut. Mukavuusalue on hukattu jo kauan sitten, joten ainakin taikuutta on tiedossa. Ja huomenna matka Lappiin, jossa pitäisi olla ilmaista, kuivaa ja kylmää lunta.



Don’t make them wait

November… If you’d ask me, I’d say this month is (here in the Nordics) best described by Tove Jansson in her book Sent i november / Moominvalley in November. It’s all there, the melancholy but also promising transformations.

This is the time for preparing oneself, whatever for.

The quiet transition from autumn to winter is not a bad time at all. It’s a time for protecting and securing things and for making sure you’ve got in as many supplies as you can.

Right now, for me, it’s all about preparing for the great unknown. I work, I train, I read, I listen, I sleep, I eat. Early mornings, late nights. To make sure I have as many supplies as I can, and should, have. I’ve booked some tickets (Stockholm and Switzerland, for the beginning), lighted up some fairy lights and tried to master this thought :

Change is neither good or bad, it simply is.

© Don Draper

Yes, things are going to change soon. And I really try to take it as it comes. I don’t do mindfulness, but I do forests and knitfulness. That should help.

Muumilaakson marraskuu on mielestäni ehkä paras kuvaus tästä kuukaudesta. On sumuista, pimeää, vähän melankolista mutta myös jännitystä tulevaisuudesta. Maisema muuttuu ja tilanteet muuttuvat. Asiat ja ihmiset muuttuvat ja muuttavat.

Syksyn verkkainen vaihtuminen talveen ei ole ensinkään hullumpaa aikaa. Se on turvaamisen ja huolehtimisen aikaa, se on aikaa jolloin itse kukin kerää talven varalta niin suuria varastoja kuin suinkin.

Metsässä sumu oli suunnaton valkoinen katto, jota puunrunkojen mustat pilarit kannattelivat – suuri juhlallinen maisema, joka oli hiljaisuuteen syntynyt.

Päivät olivat lyhentyneet ja viilenneet. Satoi harvoin. Keskipäivällä aurinko paistoi hetken aikaa laaksoon, ja paljaat puut heittivät varjonsa maahan, mutta aamu ja ilta kuluivat puolihämärissä, ja sitten tuli pimeä.

© Tove Jansson – Muumilaakson marraskuu 1970

Omiin varastoihini kerään tällä hetkellä mm. ruokaa eli energiaa, ajatuksia, ideoita, lihaksia ja yöunia. Ihan tarkalleen en vielä tiedä mitä varten (työtarjouksia odotellessa…), mutta eiköhän noilla jo selviydy aika monenlaisista tilanteista, monenlaisissa maisemissa.

Soundtrack for today (8.11.2015)

Go North

This week it happened again. I found myself explaining that it’s not the cold, the winter, which pulls me away from the North, like most of the southern people seems to think. Because those are the things which pull me back there. I know nothing about surfing (except it looks cool and that I can’t surf) but I know so much about those coastlines, about those peripheries, about those people who live there all year round. And although I have never (yet) been to the Faroe Islands, watching The Fjord and the TED talk above sums up pretty nicely what it is with those northern places, icy waters and life around there. For me.

Yritin aiemmin viikolla taas selittää, että kylmyys, talvet ja luonnon asettamat vaikeudet eivät ole se syy miksi en enää asu pohjoisessa. Päivänvastoin, kuten näissä videoissakin tavallaan kerrotaan, ne ovat se mitä kaipaan sieltä melkein eniten. Seuraavaksi voisinkin matkustaa “kotiin” Färsaarille.

anything that is worth pursuing is going to require us to suffer, just a little bit

© Chris Burkard